Anything But Strong

Maybe there isn’t anything to say,
But there’s way too much to feel
And it’s too bad there isn’t a dictionary
Embedded inside me
So I could put a name to it all

This conundrum, these convoluted thoughts
That are chasing each other
The way a dog chases after its tail
And the same way it never catches it,
They never reach a conclusion
A solution
Or build a firm resolve to action

It’s a roller coaster –
But a slow one –
Pushing its way through frozen time
And busying yourself
With moving images on screens
And sounds from speakers
Doesn’t make it stop moving
Doesn’t give you an answer

And then you revert
To that old question, thought, whatever:
Who brought you into this
So you could suffer this way?

And you hold your tears in
Because you’re in a public space
And you can’t let the world see you
Being anything but strong.

I am happy
For you who celebrate
The green of the trees
And the blue of the skies.
I am happy
That your eyes
Are able to see
The beauty in such things.

I am happy
For you who love
Without knowing,
Who disregard history
And take pleasure
In what is now.
I am happy
That your heart
Has the freedom
To do such things.

I am happy
For you who stand unmoved
As bricks of negativity
Upon you fall.
I am happy
That your mind
Is so peaceful
As to withstand such things.

I am happy
For you who are strong
Everyday, and who try
To teach others
To be the same.
I am happy,
Really happy,
That you are capable
Of doing such things.