Hulu

I realise I’m alone in the world
As I lie on my right side
And feel my heart beat
While the light
From my scented candle
Flickers against the far wall.

I’m sick.
And this time I have chosen to rest.
Remedies, natural and otherwise,
Have not worked in the past.

I yearn for a body to hold
And realise there isn’t one
I can bring near me.

I keep watching Hulu.
What else is there to do?

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Five Minutes

I want to lie down.
I know there are things to do
And time not to do them in,
But I want to lay
Myself down and wrap my body
In a blanket
Of nice thoughts –
Daydreams that will almost
Certainly never come true,
But that will make me
Feel slightly better
For the next five minutes.

Goodbyes

I’m not good at goodbyes,
but I’m not sure
how people do without them –

how they leave
without so much
as mentioning
that they are,
in fact,
leaving.

I think
they underestimate
the impact
they have on others.

I think
they think
they won’t be missed,

but they are.

They always are.

The end of the week
Is already here.
I’ve been waiting
Ahead of time.

The days no longer try
To hide.
I know.

There is now
No distinction
Between them.
The scales from my eyes
Have been removed.

This is all one
Continuum,
But one day
I will end.